First Weight Watchers Meeting

So I went to my first meeting. I went with a friend that signed up with me. She is not new and has done the program successfully in the past.

I walked in and was greeted by a very friendly staff member who gave me a bunch of newbie paperwork. I went through the awkward weigh in. I was so relieved to find out that your weight is not displayed anywhere and she didn’t say it out loud. I received a print out, and I didn’t look at it until I left and got in my car. I really didn’t want to know what it was. I kept telling myself, “its not my real number, I have clothes on.” Clothes on weight isn’t supposed to count! 

I was glad I wasn’t alone at the meeting and had a support system to sit with. Shout out! You know who you are and you’re awesome! I had been joking with my husband before I went about how I was an addict going to a “meeting”. But when I got there I realized I am an addict and I am going to a meeting with other addicts. It did feel that way and it was actually comforting. I dont know what my expectations were but I found myself sizing up other people in the room. I was surprised that there were men there. There were overweight people there, which made me feel safer. As a big person I am always comforted when I am somewhere where there is someone bigger then me. There were also a lot of skinny people, or people I would consider skinny. My friend I went with, I think of her as skinny. As I was sizing everybody up I was wishing a token would appear and hover above everybody’s heads stating their starting weight, current weight, and goal weight. I tried picturing everybody in the room fatter. 

Surprisingly, or maybe not, I got emotional while I was there. I had to keep distracting myself so I wouldn’t cry. I looked at my phone a few times, tried to think of different things, made a few smart ass comments to my friend. I think I got emotional because it really felt like something that is going to work. I think the peer pressure, meeting with people who understand the struggle, and wanting to win a reward and hit milestones is going to help. It might be the push I need. 

I don’t think this was the right meeting for me because most of the members at this location are older. I will try another location. But! I am glad I signed up so that I am able to go to meetings. I think they will keep me on track. More updates to come!